meet my baby comeeeel :)

her name is alia rashidah kut. haha. aku ta enat nme penuh ia mea. aku pnggl ia adeq or alya jeh. haha. shes cute isn't? ini bdk kecik adk sedare aku yg dok kat kg. umo ia da dua thun but bdn ia kecik jeh cm penguin. haha. maybe ekut mak ia kut kecik ajeh. haha. alya ny pnday ouh. sumpa kalo kowg jmpe ia mesty suke tgk gelagat ia. smlm en mase pas buke puase en, kitowg sume angkat la pnggn bwk g dpur, then bdk kecik ny pun angkt pnggn ia bwk g dpur gak. ia sowg2 jeh bwk. haha. pa2 ia g kat tong smpah, ia buang sisa mknn ia. pa2 ia na ltk kat singki tp tasmpay la en, then aku tlg. pa2 aku bsuhkn mulut n tgn ia. pnday sungguh bdk ny. ia tapnday ckp lg. ckp pun ckit2 jeh tu pun pelat abes. haha. aku suke rmbut ia. hardcore. haha. lurus cm rebond. ia nan aku rapat, slalu maen sme. 'tmn' aku on9 mse kat sne. haha. smpay kul 1 n 2 pagy ouh. ahha. ia susa ckit na tido. huhux. smlm mase na blek jhor sedeyh doe na tngglkn ia n nenek aku. ngee. renduuu. tp tape, t raye blek lg. hee ;))

need someone to..

company me all the time.

make me smile when i cry.

make me feel calm when i mad.

make me fall in love every second.

hug me when i need.

hold my hands when accross the road.

kiss me when i talk too much.

wish me good morningg and good nyte.

i need a boyyfie b'coz i need someone to cheer me up.

i want a happiness not a sadness !

selamat berpuasa kwn-kwn :)

sury coz late wish happy fasting. haha. i was busy in the 1st day puase, smpay tasempat na update blog. so riny ade chance na update so na merapu la skjap. haha.

oke, 1st day puase aku berbuke d'ampang KL kat ceramic's office. bisnes ayh aku wat jamuan buke puase kat ctu. abg aku ta ekut, ia tebongkang kat uma. haha. rmay gak la owg mase tuh. haih. owg laen sume beratur na amek mknn, tp aku ta, maen celah jeh. haha.peduli ape sy. haha.

dlm kul 10 cmtu aku nparents aku grak blek kmpng kat pekan, phang. then dlm kul 11 kitowg benti kat perhentian temerloh. aku tmn ayh aku mkn. siann ia lpr tamkn lg. haha. mak aku tatrun , ia tido kat dlm kete. mase aku jln kat ctu, sume owg tgk aku. ade group bdk2 laki pun tgk aku. pusing pale 180degree. hhaha. apesal tah. aku g bilikair tgk tade pun bju koyak ke hape ke. aku wat bodo jelah. mkn nan ayh aku. haha. pa2 kul 11 sengah mcmtu ayh aku smbng drive. aku tido je ah dlm kete. nantok gyle doe. grr. then alhamdulillah smpay kat kg kul 1. nenek aku tekejut tgk kitowg blek. haha. then smpay2 jeh g mencekik mee lg. haha. kul 2 sengah bru tido. pa2 pkul 4sengah nenek aku kejut 'bangun bangun, sahur sahur!'. hahha. mangon2 basuh muke then mkn nasi. yummy!. sdp2.pas mkn tido la blek. kul 11 a.m bru mangon n mndy. hahaha.

ny la citer pd 1st n 2nd puase. haha. k la, t smbng lg k. c ya n slmat mnjalani ibadah puase :))

manusia biase

i have no point to stay in this unfair life. evrthing going bad by day to day. im sick enough ! im not a perfect person. and yess i always fallin love with ex-boyfie owg. that was so lame. the stupid attitude that i ever had. no hearts feeling la kwn, hati da syg. haha. bodoh. people will think tht im syok sendiri or tegila2kn jantan owg. ouh plss ! my mom not teach me like that. my mom always said 'jgn amek laki owg'. haha. but i did. haha. sury ibu. n sury for my friends too, b'coz i TERfallin love nan ex ex kowg. and i knew tht kowg ngamok sakan n blablabla. look, aku tapenah na tehegeh kat jntan if jntan tu ta tehegeh2 kat aku dlu. im not sycophant n aku tak rety na syco owg. aku tasuke bedendam or take the personal things is a big problem smpay na bemusuh2 sume tuh. aku tasuke n thts not my style. like i said b'fore, aku mmg bukan bdk kaki gaduh. aku takuat pun mcm kowg2 ny. kalo ajk gaduh pun sure aku kalah. haha. tp trust me, aku takan jdkn member aku musuh hnye b'coz of love(jantan). pd aku mende tuh foolery. n aku tapenah pun rampas laki owg dri gf ia. tapenah. aku akan back off munyew. bukan sbb takut, tp sbb aku bkn selfish.n i know his not mine. ape aku merapu nyh ? hahahhaha. sume ny bodo la sial. haha. pape jela iera. aku mmg sexy tp bukan bitch. tp aku tapenah prtending jd alim or solehah n jadah. i am what i am n never be a fake person that pretending to be someone else n alim skjap then tak. aku tacantek, bdn kering jeh, manyak pimple lg, aku ta hott, aku gewdix, aku jhat, n aku byk sgt kekurangan. but i never been someone else. even people around me hate me n say 'eeeuuu, gewdix sial pompuan ny'. haha. she or he are gewdix jua sbnrnye. ite sume ny manusia biase. n aku bersyukur ape yg aku ade skang ny. biala owg na benci aku ke hape ke, i dnt care. b'coz i still have my family n my bestfrnds that understand n love me like i do. only them knows evrthing about me. im sorry for evrything frnds. i never meant to hurt or be ur enemy. i dnt know what i've done. aku ny manusia biase jeh yg tamampu na melawan perasaan sendiri.

trip to KL n melaka

14 - 16 august aku tade kat kluang. ary jumaat tgh ary aku da gerak kl. tido kat seri pacific hotel kat pwtc. aku g nan family aku la. bab ary sabtu mlm ade event bisnes ayh aku kat dewan pwtc tu la en. kitowg smpay ptg cm tu la. mlm tuh dlm kul 8 sumthing aku, ibu n abg g the mall kat dpn hotel kitowg tuh. haha. g mkn mcD. lpr doee. pa2 g la supermarket kat dlm tuh. ibu aku borong roty, butter,nescafe n blablabla. haha. aku n abg perli2 ibu aku. kitowg ckp 'ikan,periuk ayam , kari sume tanak bli ke bu'. haha. mane taknye mak aku bli mende jadah sume tu bab kitowg na stay 2 mlm kat hotel tuh. tp mcm na tido 2 tahun. hahah. kelakar btul. pa2 da siap bli tuh kitowg blek la hotel. mlm tuh aku plan ary sabtu tgh ary tuh na g jmpe bestie aku puw3. esk pagy nye pas breakfast+lunch aku n abg aku grak la g klcc. dlm kul 3 tuh puw3 smpay. kitowg pun grak g pavillion. penat tao ta kaki aku. bejln ta henti2. ny sume slh puw3 ny. hahaa. mase lpk kat dpn pavi tuh aku paisey gyle nan jaga keling tuh. ia ley tiup wisel ia tuh kat tinge aku. ia suruh kitowg blah. cm babi doe keling tuh. mcm la tmpat tuh atok ia munyew. bodo jeh. ny la antare pic yg aku snap. haha :

pas jln2 tuh kul 5 aku n abg aku amek cab blek hotel. tp sblum blek hotel kitowg g parkson the mall dulu. haha. then blek bilik kul 6. kelam kabut na mndy sume bab kul 6suku na g dewan. haha. mndy ala kadar jela. makeup2 ckit bab ade event en, kenela makeup2. ahha. ny la antare gmbr kat dlm dewan tuh :

1 jela eah ckup. haha. tuh pic nan ibu. haha. mmg best la mlm tuh. haha. event tu abes kul 11. kitowg blek bilik then kua blek g mkn. lpr doe. hahha. kitowg check out ary ahd tu dlm kul 12 lebey la. then g mkn pa2 gerak g tmn buaya kat melaka. haha. g sne bab na melayan anak2 kwn ayh aku. haha. pegy jela ekut. ny gmbr2 nye. ahhaha:

yeah. naseb baek tade buaya darat kat sne. kalo ta, abes aku kene ngapp. hahha. it was a short holiday but its fun. even spnjang jln ibu asek membebel n gaduh nan ayh but sokayy. da biase. hahhaha. tp bile da odw blek tu terse amatla stress bab ary senin da skula. setelah beberape ary aku taskula then na kene g skula balek. grr boringg sial. tp tape. i mish my sugarnenen amoyy. so, aku pegy jugak ke skula. hahha. k la. da penat tgn menaip. hujan dri lebat smpay da benti da. haha. k daaa :))

william shakespear. haha :D

no lights through the hole

all parts is in the dark

i'm alone here. no body care about me

no one can hear my tears

no one can feel my pain and hurt

even i cry and scream loudly

but no one comes n comfort me

even there are many people around me

it seems like a thousand miles away

all my happiness are gone

i've lost in my own world

i can't find the way to walk out

i'm stuck in the sadness

no hope anymore

please end all of this misery !

i have no reason to lough again

no one understand me

no one !

they can see nothing

just like a shadow

its don't have a soul

no eyes to see

no ears to hear

no mouth to talk

no heart to feel

no skin to touch

its come n dissapear when the light in and out

i can't do anything because i have nothing

demammm ;((

da lame ta update blog. haha. da bpe ary gak la aku ta on pc tuh yangg ta update pape. aku da dmam 3 ary da. mse mlm ahad tu aku enat dmam ringan2 jeh. esknye baekla en. tp mase kat skula tuh bdn trus pnas pale pun pitok. da r ade prhmpunan ary senin tu en. perghh sbr jela. aku diri n duduk diri n duduk ah pa g. haha. na pkay mask tp susa bab aku nye mask yg sngkut kat tinge tu bkn tali yg utk girl munyew tu.haih. pa2 lps abes prhmpunan tu adela nurse wat medicl chckup. dia ckp spe ade 4 symtoms selsema,btuk,skit tekak n dmam pegy dewan. nafeez n aku pegy ah. pa2 nurse u ckp kalo kurng 1 symtm tayah check. aku tade flu so aku blah ah msuk kelas. mase rehat tu aku da tataan sgt da, aku ckp kat bb aku na blek. then kitowg cri la cegu yg betugas mnggu ny. pa2 aku ckp kat bb, mls la na blek. haha. pa2 msuk kelas blek. aku ta g rehat bab aku puase . hmm. kwn2 aku sume pakse aku buke puase. aku tanak. syg doe kalo na buke. pas rehat cegu addmth msuk (cegu rohana). pa2 aida, bb ngadu kat cegu ckp bdn aku pns gyler. mse rehat tu aku jmpe cegu rohana ny la. haha. pa2 cegu sruh aida g dewan tgk ley check lg ta. pa2 cegu membebel kat aku . ia mara bab aku ta pegy check mase awl pagy tuh. haha. aku wat muke blur jela. haha. pa2 aida msuk kelas blek n ckp cegu azmi pnggl sruh g dewan, aku g ah dewan. pa2 check2, suhu aku 37.8 d/c. kalo suhu aku 38 dptla cuty semnggu. tp tackp 38. hah. puas cegu azmi backing aku sruh nurse tu check lg skly, tp nurse tu ckp apetah bebel. hahha. then nurse tu bg la ubt batuk yg rse cm kicap tuh, wekk , ubt dmam n vitmn c. haha. ary slasa n ary ny sepatutnye mmg aku cuty pun bab na g mncing nan ayah aku sume, tp d'sbbkn aku dmm, kene la dok uma jeh. abg n ayh aku serta kwn2 ayh aku jeh yg pegy. haha. now dmam aku da kebah la . tnggl batuk jeh yg takurang2. seksa doe. skit tekak aku., nan penin pale lagi. taley jln lame2, t rase cm na tombang, haih. k la. tgn da penat. bdn pun da sweatingg ny. tata

ouh tired -_-

riny pose lg yeay !

haha.bukan na mnunjuk tp juz excited bab lg 3 ary jeh lg na kene ganti. haha. riny aku kua skula kul 2suku, smpay umah kul 3.50pm td. abg ah g jln2 dlu. haha. pa2 td da bli air sume n bli ice-cream lg. haha. tnggl tnggu kul 7sengah jeh. huhux. k la. penat ny. byee ;))

lg 4 ary na kene ganti pose

td aku pose lg. huh. riny mmg memenatkn. aku tatao la npe. maybe bab ary pnas sgt en. da bpe ary da ta ujan. ayorkk. tp sbr jela. blek skula td dlm kul 2suku, aku terus tido. lutut da mnggigil sume. telampau tired. pa2 kul 4sengah aku mangon. hee. pa2 ibu bebel bab tasalin bju skula n ta angkat kaen. haha. yela mse aku blek td ia tade en. ia kua nan ayah. ahha. ibu ckp " owg laen pose gak tp tadela smpay taley angkat kaen". aku penatla . ape ia tahu. ahha. pa2 aku g slin bju n amek penyapu then sapu kat luar umah. spe tah yg mesin rumput td. haih. penat ouh. lps siap spu ibu n ayh na kua lg g jb. hmm. tnggl sowg lg. ayorkk. mase buke td pun aku buke sesowg bab abg pun kuar g maen takraw. mknla mee greng jeh. haha. pa2 abg col tnye 'adeq na mkn ape?'.

aku sruh ia bli air gas n ice-cream jeh. then ia blek melantak ah ice-cream tuh nan abg. haha. perut full nan air jeh. mkn mee ckit jeh. haha. thx yeh abg :) hee. hmm. btw, lg 4 ary weyh na kene ganti pose. perghh lepak siot. tape2, sbr iera sbr ! haha. k la, hw pun ta wat lg. chaw dlu, daa :)

bajet

haha. aku tasuke ko, ko pun tasuke aku. finished :)

shopping sakan ;D

yeay yeay ! td g shopping. haha. i thought na bli 1 jeh bju. tp ibu tersngkut lak kat kday kasut. hahaha. so, aku pun test2 jugak. mule2 na bli 1, tp ibu sruh bli dua. haha. pattern same tp warna jeh laen. haha. lawa2 ! abg,ayh n ibu ckp lawa, so lawa la tu. hahha. pa2 time na g kday yg aku na bli bju tuh, ade la lalu kat dpn 1 kday ny, pa2 ibu intai2 la tgk. then jumpe la 1 drees. haha. wane puteh. bju nye simple jeh. bile tgk mmg talawa, tp bile pkay aww lawa bile match nan belt. huhuc. cm cinderrela (prsan btul. haha). pa2 mase g kat kday yg aku d aim na bli bju tuh, cri2 n test2, dpt la bli 4 bju. hahha. aku test 1 jeh mse tuh. yg laen mmg tgk muat en, so amek jela. mule2 aku na bli pkay wet aku, tp mak aku yg blnje dlu. haha. pa2 dlm kete aku byr blekla. tp ibu amek rm30 jeh. yg laen ia sruh aku simpan. hahha. thnks ibu. thnks kat ayh gak bab blnje bli ksut. hee. ny la brg yg aku bli td :

kalo tgk dlm gmbr ny mmg talawa, tp ble da pkay, mmg lawa. tanyesal bli. haha :))

thnks ayh :)